yep. tears. Always.
Someone special introduced me to this amazing singer/songwriter.
He also have me this song on a cd when we had our “last goodbye”. The lyrics summed up our relationship to a T.
The fact that Jeff Buckley drowned tragically just makes it all sadder. Miss you JB. You too JB.
This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it’s over
Just hear this and then i’ll go
You gave me more to live for
More than you’ll ever know
This is our last embrace
Must I dream and always see your face
Why can’t we overcome this wall
Well, maybe it’s just because i didn’t know you at all
Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
You know it makes me so angry ’cause i know that in time
I’ll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye
Did you say ‘no, this can’t happen to me,’
And did you rush to the phone to call
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind
Saying maybe you didn’t know him at all
You didn’t know him at all, oh, you didn’t know
Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memories
Offer signs that it’s over… it’s over
Yesterday was one bad day. In the morning my younger son had an appointment with an allergy specialist. He tested positive to peanuts. I was so sad. Now, I’m no stranger to allergies, I myself have an anaphylactic allergy to dairy. But at least I can be around milk. My poor boy needs to be sheltered from peanuts completely. And the thought of his life in danger, it’s just so shocking. It will be a big change, but it’s sacrifices we have to make. Thank god things are so different than when I was a kid.
Then I went out for dinner with a few friends. One girl showed me a few pics from another friends kids birthday party. It had been held earlier that day. We weren’t invited. I felt really left out. And especially sad for my son. I’m trying to get him out with other kids as much as I can. It just brought back so many memories of being a kid and being left out. Not having many friends. Which then made me realize, I still don’t have many friends. I need to keep in touch better.
Then I had to admit I got a little jealous and envious. My other girl friend was talking about her upcoming wedding. She’s marrying a millionaire. Sigh. I hate to sound materialistic but, jeez sometimes it would be nice to get whatever I want bought for me.
Home to my husband doing a bit of basement cleaning. I started tackling an old box of pictures. Just something else to make me emotional. Photos of when I was so young and pretty. Parties with friends that I longer have.
Overall a bit of a low day. Pretty emotional and sad for me. Wide range of emotions. I guess I will occasionally use his blog just to let my feelings out. Makes me feel a little better.