‘if anyone reads this-just enjoy everything”

I have been doing a little more old diary reading. I’ve just been so nostalgic lately. I think I just feel time is going so fast, I don’t want to forget who I was. 

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 I’m not a huge Taylor Swift fan, but her song “fifteen’ can bring tears to my eyes. Somehow this song just really brings to life the wonder of being fifteen and being in amazement of everything happening to you for the first time. I really like these verses. I can’t tell you how many nights I twirled and danced in my room after a date with a boy I really liked.

“And then you’re on your very first date and he’s got a car
And you’re feeling like flying
And your mamma’s waiting up
And you’re thinking he’s the one
And you’re dancing ’round the room when the night ends, when the night ends

‘Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin around
But in your life you’ll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn’t know it at fifteen”

Now let me be clear, I was a very naive, immature, childish, defensive teenager for the most part. But I didn’t know I was those things. That’s truely the beauty of youth, you don’t know what you don’t know.

However, I did have little snippets of wisdom. I was happily surprised at myself. This was an entry from March of 1995. I was 16, and mad about a boy I liked who didn’t like me. (this happened a lot).

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“you will feel a lot more hurt in a lifetime than what this is”

So true. Yes, boyfriend heartache was rough, but there is so much worse. In the 20 years since I wrote this, I’ve had my heart broken in more ways than I ever thought possible. But I’ve also felt more joy than I knew existed.

Here’s another great quote from the same song.

“When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now”

And here’s another little diary entry from March 1999. I was 20, and just finishing my second year of nursing. I was having one of those nights. I was trying to figure out who I was and where I was going.

'if anyone reads this- just enjoy everything"

”i wish I had the chance to talk to ‘me’ now when I was younger”

Oh, and I felt ‘old’. At 20. 20!

It actually feels good to go back and read all this. Even if some of it is laughable now. I was so boy crazy.  I just shake my head, it’s kind of embarrassing. But its who I was. Who I am. Maybe when I’m 60, I’ll read this blog… and wish I could talk to that young new mom, and tell her to just enjoy everything. 


Glimpse into my past

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Here’s an entry from my old diary. I was 19 when this was written. I had been at a local bar , where i spent a lot of my time. The boy in question was a bouncer at said bar. I have no idea where he is now, nothing ever came of him and I. But at the time, it was a very important night in my life. Somehow, coming home tipsy and writing in a journal was really fun!

Quote of the day.

I find this the most appropriate quote, in any given situation. When my kids are sick. When summer brings a hot stretch of days. My maternity leave. Toddler tantrums.


I love this quote. I repeat it to myself often. IMG_8171 Good times, bad times, it all comes and goes. Smile and breathe!

Hello!

Hi!

I’m Morgan. This is my new hobby. Recently I found my old journal/diary. It was written from 1992-2004.  All through high school and university.Hard to believe I was ever that young, naive, and excited to write down all my experiences! I was angry, happy, full of dreams. Boy crazy. Im hoping to find that excitement and joy in journaling again. Most often, these posts will be a quick thought while enjoying a cup of coffee or glass of wine.  If you are reading this: thanks! Id love to hear your thoughts as well. I’m going to try and write something everyday. Even if it’s just a quick quote or rant. Maybe a recipe here and there.