‘if anyone reads this-just enjoy everything”

I have been doing a little more old diary reading. I’ve just been so nostalgic lately. I think I just feel time is going so fast, I don’t want to forget who I was. 

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 I’m not a huge Taylor Swift fan, but her song “fifteen’ can bring tears to my eyes. Somehow this song just really brings to life the wonder of being fifteen and being in amazement of everything happening to you for the first time. I really like these verses. I can’t tell you how many nights I twirled and danced in my room after a date with a boy I really liked.

“And then you’re on your very first date and he’s got a car
And you’re feeling like flying
And your mamma’s waiting up
And you’re thinking he’s the one
And you’re dancing ’round the room when the night ends, when the night ends

‘Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin around
But in your life you’ll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn’t know it at fifteen”

Now let me be clear, I was a very naive, immature, childish, defensive teenager for the most part. But I didn’t know I was those things. That’s truely the beauty of youth, you don’t know what you don’t know.

However, I did have little snippets of wisdom. I was happily surprised at myself. This was an entry from March of 1995. I was 16, and mad about a boy I liked who didn’t like me. (this happened a lot).

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“you will feel a lot more hurt in a lifetime than what this is”

So true. Yes, boyfriend heartache was rough, but there is so much worse. In the 20 years since I wrote this, I’ve had my heart broken in more ways than I ever thought possible. But I’ve also felt more joy than I knew existed.

Here’s another great quote from the same song.

“When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now”

And here’s another little diary entry from March 1999. I was 20, and just finishing my second year of nursing. I was having one of those nights. I was trying to figure out who I was and where I was going.

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”i wish I had the chance to talk to ‘me’ now when I was younger”

Oh, and I felt ‘old’. At 20. 20!

It actually feels good to go back and read all this. Even if some of it is laughable now. I was so boy crazy.  I just shake my head, it’s kind of embarrassing. But its who I was. Who I am. Maybe when I’m 60, I’ll read this blog… and wish I could talk to that young new mom, and tell her to just enjoy everything. 


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My Beagle

Just a quick post about my beagle in honour of Miss P winning Best in Show.

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My beagle Tanner is almost 12. He’s been my buddy through so much. He’s a great dog and very handsome.
He’s such a pain in the ass most days. He goes out about 20 times a day. Barks non stop. He steals garbage. He has eaten everything and anything. ie. A whole loaf of bread, whole raw potatoes, chicken wings, underwear.
He is overweight. But with kids in the house, dropping food constantly, I never have to sweep up the floors.
I feel so bad he’s getting older and lazier. So far he’s in pretty good health, but I worry about days to come. He’s such a huge part of my life. I can’t find a puppy pic, but here he is.

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Home away from home

Since I was a very young tot, I’ve spent a lot of time at Wakaw lake in the summers. My aunt had a cabin there, and the memories of go way back.

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A few years back my aunt ( who never married) decided to sign the cabin over to me. She didn’t want to wait til she died and force me to deal with a hassle of a will I guess.
So we took over paying the taxes, but honestly it still kind of remains “her” cabin.
I love the place, but it stresses me out.
It needs so much work, and it hasn’t been re decorated ever. It is very 70’s. Orange. Gold. Orange and gold shag carpet. Wall to wall, including the bathroom.
I can’t imagine losing it, but unless we put a huge chunk of change into it, it’s going to fall apart. The thought of selling it seems inviting at times. There is a lot we could do with the money. However, that wouldn’t be able to happen until my aunt died, as she would probably kill me if I sold it.
I have so many memories of being a teen out in Wakaw. We had some amazing parties. So many fun nights. So many bon fires.
It’s hard to enjoy it the same now. It’s small, there isn’t a lot of room for the kids.
The beach used to be relaxing. Now it’s loud. So many jet skis and wakeboarders. ( I sound old and bitter don’t I ??)

I just don’t really know what to do. I’m sure in a few years, we’d really enjoy it again, but right now it seems not worth it.
We’ll see.
Here’s a few of my fave pics from Wakaw lake.

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Happy Valentine’s Day! Here’s my love story.

I met my wonderful husband on New Years Eve 2007. It was a party we both almost didn’t attend. A masquerade ball, where the ratio of women to men was about 4:1. I didn’t expect to meet anyone!
We had some mutual friends, ended up talking a lot, and he asked for my number.
Our first date happened a few days later. I really wasn’t sure if I liked him. He was quite different than the guys I usually dated.
But our first date was great! I stayed out later than I planned, and we got along so well.
Our second date went even better.
I guess we both had fun, because we were together a lot after that.

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We got engaged on October 25 th 2009. We finally had a pleasant autumn day and went for a walk by the river. I had a feeling it was coming, and I was pretty excited when he asked!!
We planned our wedding for the following year. September 11 th 2010.
It was lovely. I was so happy I found my best friend to spend the rest of my life with.

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IMG_8368-0We had a wonderful honeymoon in Mexico.
We had bought a lovely house, and enjoying every minute.
We planned a European vacation.
My husband had a surprise for me. He had been saving aeroplan miles for years, and used them all to get us first class tickets. It was fantastic. An amazing trip. Paris, Barcelona, Nice, German Black Forest area ( a lot Steve’s family still lives here) and Berlin.

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While in Germany, I realized something was off. I realized it was more than jet lag making me so darn tired. It was more than new foods making me queezy.
Took the test that morning in the little “hutta” in Ofenburg, and now, life was going to change again!! I was not sure how far along, but I was definitely pregnant. And that part of my life will be a future post!

‘SNL’ Where Are They Now: The 1990s

SNL has been one of my favourites for as long as I can remember.
It was so huge for me in the 90’s. This is a great list.

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Thanks to the changes made during the late 80s, Saturday Night Live started the 90s on a high. But while there was more stability and certainly more star power in this era, the show still slogged through an uncomfortable period of transition between the gold standard cast of Phil Hartman, Dana Carvey, and Mike Myers, and the cast that was fronted by Will Ferrell and Molly Shannon.

All told, there were 34 cast members that belonged to the 90s. Some blew up, some faded away, and others popped on our screens for only an instant. Read down to see what they brought to Saturday Night Live and what they’ve done since they graduated (or were tossed aside). After that, be sure to check out our look back at the 70s cast and the 80s cast

Jim Breuer (1995-1998)

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5 things to know about measles right now.

Even though this article is geared towards the US, and I’m in Canada, the topic is till very important here too.

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Culled from The Nation’s Health of the APHA. This excellent piece was reported by Lindsey Wahowiak.

Measles was declared eliminated in the U.S. in 2000. So why is the current outbreak happening?

The vaccine for measles, a highly contagious respiratory disease, was developed in the 1960s, and since then, the U.S. has seen a dramatic drop in the number of cases reported. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention declared it eliminated: the absence of continuous disease transmission for 12 months or more in a specific geographic area. But measles is still a threat around the globe, and can be brought to the U.S. by travelers. And a new outbreak linked to visits to Disney theme parks in California is causing concern.

2014 saw a record number of measles cases, with 644 reported in 27 states. And in just the first 30 days of 2015, more than 100 new…

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Quote for today. And some wine.

I like this quote, but I find it hard. Of course things coming to an end are sad. I guess it’s another way of saying “look for the silver lining”.
It’s been a quiet week. Just making it through these winter days, feeling like spring may never come. I won’t be crying when winter ends, that’s for sure.
When the groundhog comes out in Saskatchewan, we hope and pray for ONLY 6 more weeks of winter.

Ugh. Good day to put some roast beef and potatoes in the oven. Turned out nice, medium rare with some BBQ spices rubbed in. Gravy was also excellent. (At least I thought so, I love gravy).
Opened a bottle of red. Per chance, it may have been sitting on the shelf a little too long. Learning a new lesson: don’t hoard wine.
It was still alright, dark red with some smoky spicy notes. Fruity (yet alcoholic) bouquet.
I’m sure we’ll finish it.

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